But I was trying to list how I feel the other day and I
realised that there was one word that trumped them all. I feel at peace. I feel grief, physical sickness,
uncertainty, disconnection. Those
things are there and they are true and they define much of my thought. But they do not own me. I am chained instead to the peace of
God.
How can this be true?
How can this be possible? I
do not know. I only know that the
Bible told me it would be and for the first time in my life I understand the
words of Paul in Philippians 4, “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about
everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace,
which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and
minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4 v 6-7).
There is so much I don’t know or understand in my life right
now. But I feel certain that God
is here with me and that he will answer my questions and lead me out to new
understanding, new relationships and greater truth. And that certainty brings peace.
It is so humbling.
Who am I that God would care for me? I am no different than you, I am no
more spiritual or more worthy of God.
So if these words can be true for me I believe they can be for you
too. Whatever you are facing today
take action on the words of first Peter “Give all your worries and cares to
God, for he cares about you” (1 Peter 5 v 7), and I believe you will find that
the Lord, today, will care for you.
I believe it because it is true for me, the worse among sinners.